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You ever feel sad, you talk to me and I will dry your tears with my designer scarf, ok? I care about you, go listen to some steam powered giraffe or doctor who, I swear it'll make you feel awesome.
Murderers are not monsters, they’re men. And that’s the most frightening thing about them. -Alice Sebold, The Lovely Bones
They’re yelling at eachother. And jon Stewart is slaying and bill O Reilly just looks dumb
I enjoy watching jon Stewart slay Bill O Reilly
LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT ME AND SPG.
I started listening to them a little over a year ago, after the Jon left. Honestly, I like Hatchworth so much better but that’s not the point. I fell in love with their songs, their voices, the robots and everyone around them. I love them all.
Last year around this time, I was officially diagnosed with depression. I have been struggling with it for the past 10 years. I listened to SPG when I started my first attempt at medication, when I went about 4 days with minimal sleep, constant hunger (and constant nausea). I spent a lot of time listening to AEH, Brass Goggles, Rex Marksley, and their various covers. I started branching out bit by bit, and when I was taken off my meds and limped along to a round of some outright rough testing.
When A Way Into Your Heart came out, I cried. I cried a lot. There were a lot of emotions in me with it. I was so grateful to hear Spine say "It’ll be alright, you’re not in this alone". I was upset that I couldn’t have seen them before that video came out so I could tell the world that they had done so much for me. I was devastated because I didn’t think I would ever get the chance to see them, to say everything I wanted to say to them.
This weekend, I was able to go to Realmscon and see them. I haven’t been home since the 27th, and i won’t be home until late tomorrow night, but it has been worth it.
Friday night, I went to their concert. I was overwhelmed. I was here, and I could see them, and I could give them gifts. I had the chance to say everything I wanted to say… I got to them in the autograph line and instead of being helpful, all I managed was to tell David that I was trying not to panic and was thankful for their music. He told me I shouldn’t panic, and thanked me for my support. Isabella loved her present, and was extremely happy to point out all the cool things I had done in the picture. I got a compliment from Sam about my costume, and I got a hug from Steve.
Then I went back to the hotel and had a full-blown anxiety attack.
I didn’t say what I wanted. I didn’t get to tell them how much they did for me. I just was an idiot and panicked instead. I cried.
Saturday morning, I got into my The Spine cosplay and went for my photo-op. I had something I wanted in mind, and when it was my turn, I asked if I could have a picture of all of them giving me a hug, and explained that I wanted something I could look at and always remember that it will be alright. They agreed, and we all huddled around for a lot of hugs, and David gushed over my costume. I let him touch my vest and my spines and he looked like such a proud parent.
I went to the concert that night, and I felt so much better. I sang as loud as I could, cheered and clapped until I hurt, and I was just happy. I had sketched more presents for everyone while I had been waiting in line, and this time I wasn’t afraid.
I got to tell them. I stopped at David and told him, honestly, about the anxiety and the depression, and the panic attack, and I saw the utter heartbreak on his face. It’s burned into my mind, the complete look of “No, no you’re not supposed to suffer like that you deserve better.”
And I told him that A Way Into Your Heart has helped me more than almost any music I have heard. I told him that it has helped me get through my bad nights, though hard times and calmed me down from my attacks. That heartbroken look was gone and I have never seen him smile so much, and it made me smile so brightly in return. He said he was proud of me, and he was glad I made it this far. He shook my hand, and I got another hug.
I got a chance in a lifetime, to tell them thank you for what they’ve done. I got validation for my illness, recognition that I do deserve so much better, and encouragement to keep going.
I love SPG. I love them, and I am so glad I was able to see them, to talk to them, and to have them touch my life so profoundly.
Oh god this makes me so happy. I have real tears streaming down. I suffer from depression and just recently was taken off my meds and I still suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and just hearing that you had such a great experience is so inspiring, because the band has done the same for me. Last year when I was severely struggling , I honestly from the bottom of my heart don’t think I would’ve been able to conquer depression without their music, which just completely overwhelmed me with happiness and hope. I don’t think a day goes by where I don’t listen to their music. I am so so happy for you and that you got to have such a touching experience with them and I hope I’ll get to have the same one day. You beautiful soul , bless you.